I hope you are much better 2010.

Maybe someone reading this post will think the same way as me.

Let me breakdown my 2010 journey.

National Service.

It is just like i have wasted 1 year of my life, seriously.

I wake up everyday goal-less and constantly thinking of how to slack or avoid those big shots in your battery(company). then again i don't know how things could have been without my mates.

We share laughter and sorrows (not much of sorrows lah hahaha) it's been fun with them. it would be sucky without them around.

my camp is just like condominium. it has better facilities than my own house can.

got swimming pool, street soccer court, basketball court and a renovated gym. :]

Tv with a PS2 console, endless of need for speed and WWE wrestling game. it's awesome.

I think i'm fitter in camp than staying at home. pretty nua outside although i still got jog and workout okay!

8 months and 6 days to go.

Can't wait bitches.

Hopefully this will be a good year and let me ORD smooth smooth okay. BO PI .

Need to work hard abit in order to be selected for overseas exercise this coming may.

CANADA okay.. BO PI also. hahaha

Relationship

I'm still waiting at the bus stop leh

Waiting for my another bus to come. i think the other bus stuck somewhere or something.

ive been waiting for the past 1 year plus.

then again, being single is also not too bad.

those singles out there,you should feel what i feel.

those attached out there, don't worry one day you will feel how i feel (except for some couples who might make it all the way) HAHAHA.

Nothing to say anymore.

Hope for a better 2011.

And

I'm addicted to the song Katharine Mcphee - Terrified.

Go youtube it because i'm so lazy to edit my video today.

Happy new year once again =)

Love you all. HAHAH :]

一百次感动比不上一次的心动

I find the above picture a meaningful one.

hope you guys like it although it's abit emotional. haha

i will post something happy next time. =)

and a good news to share.

i'm on a 3 days leave till wednesday.

a long long weekend for me to slack, sleep and enjoy.

date me people, i'm free of charge. hahah

anyway i shouldn't be staying at home tonight because supposedly i'm going zoukout with my NS mates, however it didn't happen.

on the other hand, it's raining right now.

so zoukout might as well be floodout. lame.

i didn't waste my saturday night either.

Went to Red-dot brew house with my secondary school mates.

it feels good meeting up with lao peng you.

the ambience was not bad after-all.

service can be a little bit better.

live band is goood. real good.

you guys should go one day. =)

i watched Rapunzel! the taunted tale.

a very good cartoon show !

and it's the first time i find the cartoon princess damn pretty sia.. hahahahah

you guys should watch it. =))

one thing to talk about,

i'm kinda of HOOKED to boys over flowers now. i know it's abit slow.. hahaha

i watched it every night when i'm in camp.

thanks to my bunk mates... argh.

and i think it's better than Taiwan version.

i hardly watched Korean dramas

so if i watch. it's good! hahaha

alright people.

wait for the next update. =)

Arsenal 2-1 Fulham highlight.

Samir Nasri double sent my Arsenal to the top of the table, for now because man united haven't play their game yesterday.

Anyway, Some history to share.

I'm a Arsenal supporter since primary 4.

I love the way the play their football.

it's beautiful , elegant like some chio bu you can spot at orchard road or even better.

Although they haven't won a title for the past few years partly because it's a transition period for the youngster to become real man footballer.

Another important reason why i support Arsenal is because they nuture young players and let them have a chance to shine despite many saying they're just kids.

Okay enough of Arsenal .

I hope they win a title this season.

Saturday was a skinny pizza and NARNIA movie session with my secondary school mates.

I love to call narnia as nin nia. HAHA .

Skinny pizza

Imagine eating po piah -biscuit with pizza ingredients on top of it.

The crust is very very very thin.

Skinny pizza motto was What a crack?

meaning you can easily hear the crack sound when you cut it or eat it.

HAHA. read my blog more and you will become a glutton !

Overall experience was FINE. 2.5 out of 5 stars.

Deducted 0.5 star due to long waiting time for our second pizza! I'M GEI GAO

BUT, their sevices is good.

If you haven't try this kind of pizza. you should! =)

This time round Nin Nia was disappointing.

Totally catch no balls at all.

Out of nowhere got one dragon ship .

then they're off on a quest to get a 7 swords.

Bad storyline. no good. HAHA 1 out of 5 stars.

Tomorrow is my book in day and i'm so happy ah! ( trying singing it out)

it's a song during my BMT days.

Nothing much to update.

See you guys next week. =)

Hey I don't know whether there is anyone reading this blog or not.

But i will try to update whenever i'm out of camp.

I had my Ippt for the second window.

I've cleared my IPPT at ease but i wasn't satisfied with my result at all.

I didn't run a gold timing.

I'm disappointed in myself despite all the time i spent on training.

I train harder than my course time.

Yet i'm still short of 15secs.

I can blame the sky, the sea , the people, the red bull i drank which apparently act more like hindrance than aid to me.

I should have run harder and faster.

Well, I will continue to try until i get a gold.

Additional 100 bucks from AH GONG is a must get bonus.

National Service will end in 8 months time.

Studying and working would be the top priority.

I have to stop procasinate and really get my ass down to plan for my future.

it's no joke when you step into outside world.

Need to adapt to new enviroment again.

Need to prove your worth to the boss.

Best is i myself can become a big towkay ! HAHA

Duty on a weekend doesn't make any difference to me now.

Speaking of which, I'm doing duty on this coming sunday!

Anyway,

Went to IT show this noon after IPPT.

Got myself a long awaited media converter player (google it if you don't know what it is.)

and USB fan for my poor lappy.

It wasn't the best time to go IT show after ippt.

My legs become sore and numb.

Plus the fact that i've stand all the way from tampinese to lakeside!

it's no joke seriously.

And guess what people drink martell or vodka on friday night.

i drink PI PA GAO like free on friday night because my throat hurts so damn bad.

and pi pa gao really work wonders. i'm feeling better now.

good recommendation people!

It's 2am now.

time for bed and tml will be a better day

see ya people!

and Arsenal shall win aston villa 2-1 tml night! ^^

Just a dream

i was thinkin about her
i’m thinkin about me
i’m thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes…
and it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you come back
no one knows
and i realize, it was only just a dream

i was at the top
now its like i’m in the basement
number 1 spot
now shes finding a replacement
i swear now i cant take it
knowing somebody’s got my baby

now you wait around, baby i cant think
i should put it down, shoulda got that ring
cuz i can still feel it in the air
see your pretty face
run my fingers through her hair

my love
my life
my shorty
my wife
she left me, i’m tight
cuz i knew that it just ain’t right

i was thinkin about her
i’m thinkin about me
i’m thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes…
and it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you come back
no one knows
and i realize, it was only just a dream

and i be ridin’
and i swear i see your face and every time
i try to get my usher on but i cant let it burn
and i just hope that she notice she the only one i yearn for
no more sooner will i learn

didn’t give her all my love
i guess now i got my payback
now i’m in the club thinking all about my baby

she was so easy to love
but wait, i guess that love wasn’t enough
i’m goin through it every time that i’m alone
now i’m wishing she would just pick up the phone
but she made a decision that she wanted to move on
cuz i was wrong

i was thinkin about her
i’m thinkin about me
i’m thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes…
and it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you come back
no one knows
and i realize, it was only just a dream

if you ever loved somebody put your hands up x2
and now they’re gone and you wish you could give them everything (x2)

i was thinkin about her
i’m thinkin about me
i’m thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes…
and it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you come back
no one knows
and i realize, it was only just a dream

Just a story to share.

There was a 8 million toto draw back few years ago and there is a myth about chong pang 7 eleven being the best HUAT toto outlet.

Hence, We went to explore Yishun, An area that both of us have never been before.

We were lost initially however managed to find the chong pang 7 eleven to buy my totos.

I didn't strike, like DUHH.

The point is,

I walk past that 7 eleven whenever i book in now.

I'm facing chong pang estate whenever i'm in camp now.

I know chong pang at my fingertips now.

Chong pang is still there

7 eleven Singapore pools outlet is still there .

But....

She is not here anymore.

Just turn 22 on the 22th of Oct 2010. HAHA

Time fly so fast that you can barely even notice what really happen in your life.

9 more months of national service and there come the working society.

another chapter of my life will begin.

gonna use what i've learnt in polytechnic and apply for a job.

i know it's not going to be a smooth and easy journey outside there.

well, that's life.

I don't know why is it me or what, i kinda prefer stay in life which i don't have worry what to do later. I can't really stay at home now. I feel wasted especially on my off days or leave.

It's a fact that you will turn to your friends when you got no girlfriend to accompany you.

However your friends might not be free.

and thank to the pathetic pay given by ah gong. i can't really spend much when i'm out.

So, stay in life is much better compare to outside.

Endless of craps i can talk inside,

Endless of shower i can take inside,

Endless of WWE i can play inside.

Before my ORD comes, i think i need to go for a course named CCC.

Civilian Changing Course. HAHA. this will prepare me for outside world.

Enough of national service craps

everything gonna end in 2 years, but i believe i make some great friends throughout this 2 years.

Stay tuned people.

Hello everyone.

I'm Back.

A new theme.

A new layout.

I won't want to use colour font now. it kinda sucks.

Hope you all will like it.

Like i always wanted. Simple and nice.

National service is finishing in a year time.

Time really fly.

What will be waiting after i ORD?

Study, work? Either both or one by one?

I've nothing much to blog though.

Takecare everyone.

and Wait for the next post. =)

well long time didn't update this blog.

hope there're still audience patiently tuning to this.

let me break up my current life into 3 parts.

1st - Family

Family kinda screwed up to me now.

I have this feeling that im glad that i have a stay in vocation rather than stay out.

guess how bad it is people.

also got nothing much to speak about it. it's quite pointless.

2rd - NS life

Basically Ns life is just sucking thumbs for me.

Whenever there're instructions or orders from the superiors that you really hate to do it.

you gotta to. if not they gonna threaten you with this and that.

just suck thumb and do.

im not so much into whining about how come i didnt get into combined school. i meant. FOR WHAT. you guys might say im sour grape. maybe i am .

eventually ORD or ROD is the biggest prize you can get in national service.

not 3rd sergeant or big shot officers .

after Ord (except those signing on for life) , you can tell people you're an officer whereas i'm just a lowly man. it doesnt mean you're more competent than me or whatsoever. Its just luck to me seriously(not sour grape this time round ) . well there're of course i still respect some officers, they're obviously good enough to be a good leader.

6 months of my NSF is over. Been through relentless cycle of shits. Made true friends whom you know you can count on them when you need it.

Still got around 1 year 2 months to go and im gonna claim my biggest prize ever.

3rd - Single Life

Being single has its own pros and cons.

pros are, you can do whatever you want and whenever you want

cons are, you got no one to listen to you or go out with (esp NSF time) . it makes you feel fucking lonely at times.

Thats about it.

Stay tuned guys.

andddd

wait for it...

LEGENDARYYYYYY

Toni Braxton - Yesterday

I gave you the benefit of the doubt
'Til you showed me what you were about
Your true colors came out

And your words couldn't hide the sin
'Cause the truth about where you been
Is in a fragrance I can't recognize

Just standing there, scratching your head
Bloodshot eyes, drunk with regret
Hanging yourself ten feet over the edge

I'm done with this, feeling like an idiot
Loving you, I'm over it
I just don't love you, don't love you no more

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you'd lose my love this way
Now you come begging me to stay

See you, you are so yesterday
I won't let you rain on my parade
I don't wanna hear a thing you say
You're so yesterday

Baby, what you're saying to me is
There's no more you and I
I couldn't get it right on yesterday
So kiss our tomorrows goodbye

Baby, love should brought me home
Should've just been a man about it
But now I'm crying like a baby
Girl, your love was like my blanket
Don't know what to do without it

I'm standing here, pleading my case
You don't care to hear what I say
Hanging yourself ten feet over the edge

My promises don't mean nothing
The end is so disgusting
I just don't love you, don't love you no more

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you'd lose my love this way
Now you come begging me to stay

Honey, you, you are so yesterday
I won't let you rain on my parade
I don't wanna hear a thing you say, so yesterday

And now you wanna reminisce
Say you wanna try again
It started with a little kiss
But we can't even be friends

No, no, now I never wanna see you
Never wanna feel you, never wanna hear you
I don't love you, don't need you
Can't stand you no more

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you'd lose my love this way
Now you come begging me to stay

You, you are so yesterday
I won't let you rain on my parade
Don't wanna hear a thing you say

So yesterday, so yesterday
So yesterday, so yesterday


you you're so yesterdayyyyy

Asher Roth - I Love College


[Intro]
I'm nice right now
I, I feel good
If you have a drink
Would you please put it in the air

[Chorus]
That party last night was awfully crazy
I wish we taped it
I danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked
Drink my beer and smoke my weed
But my good friends is all i need
Pass out at 3 wake up at 10
Go out to eat then do it again

[Verse 1]
I wanna go to college for the rest of my life
Sip bankers club and drink miller lite
On thirsty thursday and tuesday night ice
And i can get pizza a dollar a slice
So fill up my cup
Lets get fucked up
I'm next on the table
Who want what
I am champion at beer pong
Allen Iverson Hakeem Olajuwon
Don't even bounce, not in my house
Better hope you make it
Otherwise you naked
Time isn't wasted when you're getting wasted
Woke up today and all I could say is

[Chorus]
That party last night was awfully crazy
I wish we taped it
I danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked
Drink my beer and smoke my weed
But my good friends is all i need
Pass out at 3 wake up at 10
Go out to eat then do it again

Man I love college
And I love drinking
I love women
I love college

[Verse 2]
I can't tell you what I learned from school
But I could tell you a story or two
Um yea of course I learned some rules
Like don't pass out with your shoes on
And don't leave the house till the booze gone
And don't have sex if shes too gone
When it comes to condoms put two on
Then tomorrow night find a new joint
Hold the beer bong
Nothing wrong with some fun
Even if we did get a little just too drunk

Time isn't wasted when you're getting wasted
Woke up today and all I could say is

[Chorus]
That party last night was awfully crazy
I wish we taped it
I danced my ass off and had this one girl completely naked
Drink my beer and smoke my weed
But my good friends is all i need
Pass out at 3 wake up at 10
Go out to eat then do it again

Man I love college
And I love drinking
I love women
I love college

Now if everybody would please
Put their drink as high as they can
As high as they can
And repeat after me

CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG
CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG

FRESHMAN FRESHMAN FRESHMAN FRESHMAN

DO SOMETHIN CRAZY DO SOMETHIN CRAZY
DO SOMETHIN CRAZY DO SOMETHIN CRAZY

KEG STAND KEG STAND KEG STAND KEG STAND

Yea
That party last night
Man i love college
I love it
That party last night
Alright everybody
I gotta head back to class for a little bit

(chorus in background)

But after that
You know whats goin' down
My house and 3 kegs
See you there
You're all invited
Bring your friends
Bring your mom

Do I really have to graduate,
Or can i just stay here for the rest of my life

Pixie Lott - Cry me out

I got your emails
You just don't get females
Now, do you?
What's in the heart
Is not in your head
Anyway

Mate, you're too late
And you weren't worth the wait
Now, were you?
It's out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance
When you played me

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain't all that
Maybe, there's no way back
You can keep talking
But, baby, I'm walking away

When I found out
How you messed me about
I was broken
Back then I believed you
Now, I don't need you
No more

The pic on your phone
Proves you weren't alone
She was with you, yeah
Now, I couldn't care
About who, what or where
We're through

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain't all that
Maybe, there's no way back
You can keep talking
But, baby, I'm walking away

Gonna have to cry me out
Gonna have to cry me out
Boy, there ain't no doubt
Gonna have to cry me out

Won't hurt a little bit
Boy, better get used to it
You can keep talking
But, baby, I'm walking away

Listen, I got the emails
I got the text
The answer's still the same
It's the way it is
I got to go

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain't all that
Maybe, there's no way back
You can keep talking
But, baby, I'm walking away

You'll have to cry me out
You'll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It's time to get over yourself

'Cause baby, you ain't all that
Maybe, there's no way back
You can keep talking
But, baby, I'm walking away


Reeve's life 30/01/2010

This is a must listen song before i go to sleep recently.
Anyway, some updates for the past few weeks happenings. 

I've kind of got used to the life in camp.
Chong pang is my official second camp.
tried their famous nasi lemak for 2 times within 3 weeks there. 
guess i will get sick it very soon.

Started to play l4d2 with my mates, comparing the old one and new one.
new one have much bigger and diffcult maps ah. 
it's good. girls should just play man.
as long you know how to hold a mouse. you can play. haha

Oh ya, one piece of good news.
My niece just stepped into this very earth. 
Her name is Charmaine.
She's really a adorable baby.
Post her pictures next time for you guys. haha.

Went prawning with secondary school mates on last last bookout,
As usual, I didn't manage to catch alot. But slight improvement from the previous 1
I caught 2. HAHAHAHAHAH. fucking loser man.
shall try again next time. hahaha


Had my Ippt test on last Thursday.
I must say i did well for it but apparently not well enough
I was short of few seconds in 2.4 km running to achieve GOLD and 200 bucks.
nevertheless, there's one year for me to take and take till i get my gold.
and i believe i will get it. 

I'm getting heavier too. haha
now weighting 60kg already.
my ideal weight would be 65 kg. 
maybe till that time, i would be too fat to jump around like monkey or frog. 

Also got the chance to have recreation time with my course mates during friday 
before book out.
Of course, i played my usual game, basketball.
it's been a long time since i felt good playing it.
and maybe i should dream big for it too. 

there are good and bad times inside the camp.
i guess i just make sure everyday is a fuck - free day.
don't do wrong things then you won't get fuck . haha
fuck as in get tekan for stupid things.

i'm kind of addicted to the word fuck.
whatever word related to that. i use it alot recently.
so please bear with it. hahah 

anyway, i've got one quote to share before i put a full stop for this post.

Without YOU -- dayz are "Sadday. moanday. tearsday. wasteday. thirstday. frightday

take care and have fun!

JLS - Everybody in love


Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
If you’re in love, put your hands up

You know you need someone
When the need’s so strong
When they’re gone, you don’t know how to go on
So the whole world is stuck in a moment
Standing still until they come back

You accept that they’ve, got things to do
But sometimes in the end there’s nothing left for you
If hurt is missing your baby
I’ve done too much of it lately

Every minute's like an hour
Every hour's like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am I gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
What else could it be
Missing you so deep
Long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

And even when we mad, and say we’re through
Deep inside you feel the same way I do
Might as well turn around and just end this
Cause it’s harder trying to stay mad

I could tell you that you can’t stay here
Knowing just as soon as you disappear
That I’ll be missing you baby
Soon as you get up and you walk away

Every minute's like an hour
Every hour's like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am I gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
What else could it be
Missing you so deep
Long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
If you’re in love, put your hands up

Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
If you’re in love, put your hands up (put your hands up)

Every minute's like an hour
Every hour's like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am I gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
What else could it be
Missing you so deep
Long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

What is depression?

We all go through ups and downs in our mood. Sadness is a normal reaction to life’s struggles, setbacks, and disappointments. Many people use the word “depression” to explain these kinds of feelings, but depression is much more than just sadness.

Some people describe depression as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. However, some depressed people don't feel sad at all—instead, they feel lifeless, empty, and apathetic.

Whatever the symptoms, depression is different from normal sadness in that it engulfs your day-to-day life, interfering with your ability to work, study, eat, sleep, and have fun. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness are intense and unrelenting, with little, if any, relief.

Are you depressed?

If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression.

• you can’t sleep or you sleep too much
• you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
• you feel hopeless and helpless
• you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
• you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
• you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual
• you have thoughts that life is not worth living (Seek help immediately if this is the case)

Common signs and symptoms of depression

• Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
• Loss of interest in daily activities. No interest in former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.
• Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
• Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
• Irritability or restlessness. Feeling agitated, restless, or on edge. Your tolerance level is low; everything and everyone gets on your nerves.
• Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.
• Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.
• Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.
• Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.

I'm feeling those RED stuffs now. Sigh